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I am the owner and blogger on this site. Hi! :D I like sparkles, sweets, and being nice. But I also laugh at snarky things. So I'm a work in progress.

Cybernetic Perfection

I wrote this in early October of 2013. I’m not sure if this poem is trying to say that cybernetics is cool or scary…or both. Realistically, I suppose the concept of cybernetics is both cool and scary. It has a potential to be a positive transformation. And yet, in the wrong hands, it would be a devastatingly awful thing to unleash on the world.

(poem after the photo)

Glowing Tulip (c) Windy Johansen.

Glowing Tulip (c) May 2012 by Windy Johansen.

Cybernetic (This New Invention)

we’ve made this new invention
it’s cell-sized and glorious
it’s tiny and wonderful
and it will change your life

storing data, chewing numbers
drawing original scenes
measuring everything in a flash

cybernetic invention
if you can think it, you can be it
cybernetic invention
it’s something more perfect than you
making you more perfect than you
cybernetic invention

you’ve bought this new perfection
you’ve grown to be powerful
you’ve overcome all your faults
and you can’t be more free

scoring higher, crunching numbers
meeting magnificent goals
controlling every part of your fate

cybernetic perfection
if you can think it, you can be it
cybernetic perfection
it’s something more perfect than you
making you more perfect than you
cybernetic perfection

Save #NetNeutrality

So I’ve been a bit of a broken record today (and yesterday). I believe in net neutrality.

As it says in my sidebar right now..

I grew up with a free and open internet. I found my friends and my family there. I will not allow this attack on our way of life to go uncontested. The internet is, first and foremost, a tool for communications.

#StoptheFCC from redefining it as yet another way for companies to control what we see and know. Call, write letters, make a ruckus. :D


“Make a ruckus.” — Jessica Rosenworcel, FCC commissioner

“I aim to misbehave.” — Firefly

I aim to misbehave in the sense that I’m not going to ignore this. I’m a very anxious sort, but I don’t have that same anxiety when I’m here and talking, so I’m going to use this as my opportunity to not shut up about it.

I not only grew up with an open and free internet, I grew up with computers. My father was a computer programmer. Computers and the internet are a blessing that is not to be denied.

Right now, if you want to read a story or post on a small website, you can do that for the price of your internet service. It might be a news story. It might be frivolous. It might even be a story about why someone thinks ISP X or Y is superawfulhorrible…or how yours is doing something bad. Your ISP serves the site to you (even the stories that don’t say favorable things about them), and doesn’t have the right to deny you that content. That’s net neutrality.

What the repeal of net neutrality will do is make it possible for your ISP (Internet Service Provider) to charge you, or the site’s owner, or even both to allow you to see that website.

Or they just won’t show it to you at all.

That throttles useful communication and puts our lives and information streams in the hands and control of companies that would profit greatly from either blocking access to certain things, or charging more money for access to whatever content they decide to charge more for.

I’m not going to trust companies when the situation is like that. Net neutrality is a blessing.

Again, in my sidebar, it reads:

This site can’t exist without a neutral internet. Fight for #NetNeutrality!

Battle for the Net – Break the Internet

Fight for net neutrality by calling Congress. Don’t let them ignore you. Go to Battle for the Net – Break the Internet to get some tools to make a ruckus with. Go to their main page, Battle for the Net to further understand what net neutrality is and why it’s such a big deal to fight for it.

Make the biggest ruckus you can manage. Show them our power to get in the way of this regression.

This is my profile picture on Facebook and Twitter right now.

The FCC is about to vote to kill net neutrality. Only Congress can stop it. Call Congress.

I’m gonna fight.

The Effect of Impact and Intent on Hurting Others

Branches in a Grey Sky - branches frame a grey sky on the bottom and right sides of the photo

Branches in a Grey Sky (c) 2012-2017 Windy Johansen

So, I have been thinking about impact as compared to intent as applied to mistakes and hurtful things. This will probably be short, even though this is something that would benefit from a longer post.

If someone crashes into you, and the event paralyzes you…you’ve been hurt. No one can be truthful in saying that you were not injured. Paralysis changes someones life. That’s fair to say.

Maybe you’ll never walk again. You have the use of everything other than your legs. You might feel a lot of things. This is a traumatic thing, even if you can still do almost everything even after this.

But think of this possibility. The driver of the car wasn’t trying to hurt you. Maybe they had no idea that the car was faulty, and something broke…and you were hit. The driver is apologetic. Pays all the bills needed to help you get back to as much of you as possible. Maybe you find out that you can drive again, but you have to have hand controls for your car. The driver pays for all this too.

You’re still paralyzed, but this person has apologized and tried to set things as right as they can.

Compare, though, someone that wanted to hurt you. Maybe they thought they’d get money for it or something. Or they just straight up hate you for whatever awful reason.

If I were in such a car crash, I’d want to be dealing with the first driver.

I really think intent does matter, because it can change what happens after the injury. Even if it doesn’t, I’d say that one suffers less when you know someone wasn’t trying to hurt you. It’s worse when someone wants to hurt you, I think.

And yet, you’re still paralyzed. And you need kindness from others, and it hurts when people are nasty to you.

Even though intent is important, I know I have a holy responsibility to be the person who lifts others, even when the initial injury was nothing I caused. I’m a fellow human being, and it’s only right that I honor God by acting towards them in the way that He would.

It’s only what I need when I fall.


Concrete Midnight ~Replay~

(This is a repost of “Concrete Midnight”. I wrote this in January of 2013. I think it’s a good one to repeat, and now I’ve got a picture alongside it. I thought Replay was an interesting subtitle. :) )

Two stars on a string carried by another one.

Two stars on a string carried by another one.

Concrete Midnight

concrete midnight
a hard landing
is that sanity spilled on the pavement?

serene silence swells
a stark loneliness evaporating
while memories of sunshine return

growing concrete
a dazed midnight
is that daylight spilled on the pavement?

water rushing down
a sharp memory has recovered
as solitude in daylight deepens

a fight within
a secret alley
concrete midnight
I wish I was more
more than I am
in this concrete midnight

fatigue growing
one life’s hoping
is that confusion spilled on the pavement?

immense secret peace
one spark opening understanding
so sanity will become larger

a fight within
a secret alley
concrete midnight
I wish I was more
more than I am
in this concrete midnight

midnight fatigue
a thrill’s texture
a new mosaic spilled on the pavement

a fight within
a secret alley
concrete midnight
I wish I was more
more than I am
in this concrete midnight

(c) 2013-2017 Windy Johansen

Human Horrors, Marginalizations, and the Faltering of Words

So, I was thinking.

There are a ton of marginalized people. Marginalized for different reasons. Race, sexuality, gender identity, disability…..and more. Sometimes people are marginalized in more than one way.

But something bothers me.

I remember, within the last year, someone (from one of these groups) was angry because they weren’t seeing their more privileged friends speaking out about terrible things that had happened.

And something in that bothered me. There was an assumption that everyone that they wanted to speak…even could. Or would be listened to if they did.

It’s not that I don’t think you should speak out and protest evil things being done to others. You should. But there are multiple ways to be marginalized, so if I don’t belong to your group of marginalized people, that doesn’t mean that I’m free from any type of marginalization.

I’d like to channel my privilege into something productive, but I’m not free from marginalization myself.

And again, the assumption that everyone even can speak out..is just not true.

I am autistic. (Or I am a person with autism, if you prefer.) For me, this creates trouble in understanding language, as well as producing it. I mean, I realize that I sound like there’s no problem, but here’s the catch: the problem I have is applying the proper words to the right contexts. I have a rich vocabulary, but I can’t use it effectively.

And as your emotions grow (and mine too), my ability to express myself even passably falters greatly. I know that the event at hand was awful. I am appalled that people treat each other with such disregard for their common humanity.

But I also know that your heightened emotions require carefully planned words, because I want to be supportive. I want to help you, not hurt you. I don’t think that you need my faltering, stumbling words in such a moment. You need someone who can actually say the things that don’t hurt.

I mean, when I’m hurting badly, I really don’t need more pain, even if the other person means well. I would need friendship and love at such a time. I want to be that person for you at this time.

I just..I want you to remember this when you are upset about how few of your friends decry a horrible event.

Sometimes, I just can’t say anything, because I just do not have the language skill that I need to express myself. Sometimes, I can work it out. Sometimes, too much time has passed and it feels like saying anything would just get me yelled at.

Please remember that there are real reasons for people to not be speaking when it would be helpful for you for them to do that.